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mood: groggy

A quick entry since I'm tired and I really want to go to sleep even if I haven't touched one bit of my homework yet... SO... just got back from my first dance... I went because I was curious. You know, I mentally prepared to see a total Cinderella-style dance... shut up... but of course I'm wrong. Holy hell, I was so goddamn shocked. People grinding? Aw man.
  
     Is this considered grinding? one knee between the girls leg and swinging the hips back and forth? That's all I saw around me. And there were even couples who were making out.

    Let me just tell you that I refused to be in any part of this. I secured my first dance. Because my first dance has to be a slow one with preferably coughCLOUDcough. But he doesn't even go to my school, let alone in the same country... so...

    But I feel so insignificant though. All is the world, one is me.

    Cloud's refusing to talk to me again. And I'm still hurt about the whole girlfriend thing. I was wishing he could have been here at the dance. I don't think I will go to another one except for prom because holy crap, I don't want to fucking grind with a guy! I want a romantic scenario.. like under moonlight... with Cloud!! Yeah. Too bad he has a girlfriend. Stupid old me.

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mood: tired

music: Bye Bye- Mariah Carey

    I've started to play tennis quite a lot now... for practice, because I want to improve at it. So now, every weekend I go hit the wall for 2 hours. Is that what you call it, hitting the wall? Well, anyways, there was this guy at the tennis court, using the wall, so I shared with him. When I went into the court area, I closed the metal gate behind me and he thought I locked it or something. He told me to open it and he was kind of weird... so I didn't mention that it was impossible to lock the metal door since you can't without one of those school locks to actually lock it... And then so I backtracked and left the door ajar for him and he called me a sweetheart for doing so. Well... it's just that the guy was a weird old middle aged man and that pretty much freaked me out... But thankfully he left after 10 minutes...

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mood: drained

music: Through the Rain- Mariah Carey

    Instead of going to bed, I am insisting on posting another entry because I've got a lot going in my head, even though it is only supposed to be filled with math information, since I have an important test tomorrow... but I got distracted since I was thinking about another thing.

    It's that time again where I have to make big decisions. It's going nowhere, to say the least. I'm feeling very down in the weather, and I really just want to see a sign, just a tiny little sign and that will stop me from giving up. Maybe I'm just getting too worked up on this and I just wish something could happen between us. And I have so much to think about.
Is he worth it? Is he going to go back to the way he was before? Or should I have to make a graceful (and smart) exit to the backstage door to the left?

    It's just that I've never met anyone that got along with me so well, personality wise. My friend says that my long term leave must have hurt him and I'm feeling sorry and regretful for my past actions and there's a reason why I came back. I came back to look for you again, to go back to the old days. But I'm getting close to nothing responses from you, Cloud. I hate how I always come home awaiting and I don't want to say that I would be disappointed every time when I don't see your reply. Am I saying too much? I am, aren't I?

    Just a sign, I just want a freaking sign from you, or God, or anyone. A sign that would help me make my decision to make an exit or try to keep up.

    What a/My... emo... journal. XD boohoo

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mood: blah

music: Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis

    What did I do today? I almost burned down the kitchen. I really don't go well with plastic... I mean, this is the second time this month that I've had an accident involving plastic... I turned on the wrong heat and turned on the broken burner instead and the unused burner had a plastic pan over it, and basically it turned black and I hate the smell of burning plastic, I really do. It's just nasty.  And I even had a witness! My brother was right there pouring himself a glass of water when we smelled the burning plastic. He keeps telling me it smells like crap in the house.

    Besides that, in PE today, I did my 6 lap and I felt like I almost died afterwards. I kept pushing myself to go faster in the last lap so I could improve my time. And dammit, I only improved 6 seconds. That's why, I'm going to keep on doing 6 laps until I can get under 14 minutes! I am very determined, even if I almost threw up afterwards. Well, I would have if I had eaten something besides a banana for breakfast.

    It's the end of April, and May is campaigning month for reps and student council elections... If I didn't have to move away this summer, I would run for rep.

    I had my little moment of irony today too. I found something and then I lost something. In other words, I found a pen, but I lost a ring. Okay, that's not that great of any irony. I just felt like pointing it out. I'm losing it! :O
 
    I like lists, so I think I will make one today: just had dinner, sooo...

1. fool around on the computer until 8
2. watch beauty and the geek
3. study at 9 for math test tomorrow/do homework
4. work on my writing a little bit
5. go to sleep

    Pretty straightforward evening. No events on my agenda until this Saturday, which is the May Fair! :O And a huge French test this upcoming Thursday too... crud.

   

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mood: good

music: Tonite by Addictiv

    There was a carnival today around my school, so I got my brother to go with me. It was actually more a street sale and I mostly spent my money on food... COUGH COUGH. aren't I supposed to be on a diet?

    There were a total of bands, hot dogs, FREE popcorn and lemonade and balloons! I took two balloons. There were lots of little kids too and my school held a track meet for elementaries, so thats why it was so busy. I bought a two rings, one silver and one gold for only $3. I didn't spend much because there's still the May Fair at my brother's private school I still want to go next Saturday. Apparently, they have lots of events there. My brother said he'll get me a cake... since he's managing the cake walk. I'm still trying to get people to come with me. Why are people always busy on Saturdays?

    And I found the best place to buy ice cream! I love ice cream! Especially French Vanilla... This diner (didn't see the name??) also had an ice cream parlour and they have the HUGEST ice cream cones I've ever seen and only for $2.75. Awesome. Now I have a great place to go when the days gets hot.

    Just now, I was trying something I've always wanted to try. Inhaling helium! I took one of my balloons that I got for free and inhaled the helium inside the balloon. I think I must have done something wrong since my voice didn't go chipmunky... or maybe because my voice is already high enough? Or maybe it just works better with guys. Well, my voice did go up a little higher. I still have one balloon left!! But I find balloons fascinating, so I just want to let this one float in my room. :)

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mood: tired

      Still sick! I desperately want to go to bed, but since I just had dinner, maybe that wouldn't be such a great idea since I've kind of gained weight due to my lack of exercise during my cold.
   
    I just discovered this afternoon when I was walking home from school that the cherry blossoms are dying! It is too freaking chilly for them to survive and now they have turned dark red, which they are supposed to be in fall, not spring. I really don't get the weather here where I live. Very unpredictable and come on, it's the end of April and the weather is still under 10 degrees celcius? I still can't wear flip flops yet...

    That's all I'm posting today, since I really can't think of anything else I want to add to my journal. I need more drama.

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mood: sick

music: Say it Right- Nelly Furtado

    I didn't even know that today was Earth Day until I was in the school library using Google... Well, my contribution was that I walked to school this morning like I always do. I'm a regular anyways. It always takes me 40 minutes to walk to school.

    I'm feeling pretty sick today. I think I caught a cold, I have the sniffles. I  went through  two packets of kleenex  already. I'm just so glad  I'm back home again, but unfortunately I still have to go make dinner for my brother. Oh god, why can't he make his own dinner?? He is so getting pampered by me. I hope he'll come to understand how he has such a wonderful sister and how he'll miss me when he's away in university this fall. I doubt it though, that ungrateful guy. He's gonna get a girlfriend and forget about me. Stupid brother.

    Besides being sick, my English teacher just had to be spontaneous today of all days. He actually checked our homework on the day I decide not to do it. Damn...
   
    I could barely sing the scales in Choir today too. I was mouthing the whole time during the high notes, haha.

    Can you believe that I actually have to do a Math project? It's pointless and it's stupid and it's on statistics. Did you know that on average in your lifetime you will consume eight spiders in your sleep? I guess my brother wasn't lying to me when he warned me about choosing the top bunk when I was away at camp few years ago. I refused to believe it then too. This is just one of those things that I can live without knowing. But I found it interesting and weird. It's gross because the spider goes into your mouth because of warmth, and it probably wants to build a home there, but we swallow, which would kill it. Statistics show that left handed people live fewer nine years than right handed people too...

    On an ending note, I would like to say that Cloud, I hope you know how to read between the lines. Oh god, this will never work out if I'm talking to a blank wall... -_-

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location: typing this out while bath water running...

mood: contemplative

music: pocketful of sunshine by natasha beddingfield

    Pretty smooth day today. Since it's a day off from school, I lounged around all day and accomplished very little. I did do the laundry... and have yet to do my homework.

    I want to go skating, but no one wants to go at all and skating seasons almost over. At school, we had a week of skating and I miss that. I don't get why people think skating is boring. Other people think that it's boring to skate in circles around a rink. I think otherwise. When I skate, I get a wonderful feeling like I'm gliding and I actually feel graceful. I love the cold air and it's one of my dreams to skate in an outdoor skating rink under a night sky with just me and a special person. I wish I had taken figure skating though.

    I'm hoping this summer I can take up flute lessons. One of the many things I want to try because I love trying new things. I already know how to play violin and although I really want to try piano and guitar, I don't think my parents will allow it. Just flute is okay too, since I've asked a lot from my parents already, like getting a dog this summer... they did give me their expectations though... which I am hoping I will meet.

    Last night, I wanted to make popcorn while I was watching King Kong on CityTV, and I freaking burned the popcorn, and it was even the microwave kind too! The whole living room plus the kitchen had the burning smell and so I had to go open some windows and it was like 3 degree celcius last night. It had even snowed last Friday too! So, basically I was freezing my butt off just because I burned stupid microwave popcorn when I had even set the timer to 2 minutes and 30 seconds! I was even counting if there was a 2 second difference between the pops. And it still burns. Dumb luck.

    I'm gonna go take a long bath now. And maybe afterwards I'll drink a cup of jasmine tea. 

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mood: drained

music: 晴天 by 周杰倫

    Snap, I feel like crying. I feel so stupid. I'm blaming my freaking hormones for this.

    I had it before, I had it all before! But I effing lost it. Why do I do this to myself? Stupid mistakes after another. And I hate how I've become. Aw man, look at me, telling myself all this. I'm just... frustrated. I want some feedback, is all.

     I just can't be optimistic about everything. One way or another, I have to leave people behind and that really sucks. I miss him a lot. I miss my carefree days where I didn't have to give a damn about how others thought of me. And now I'm so cynical. Before, I could never write angst fiction, but now, I suppose I can. I wish I could go back to my childhood again.

    This is what happens when I'm bored... I start to think a lot of stupid things. Like, before when I was little, I found school very interesting, but now that I'm older, it's so... uninteresting. There's nothing to entertain me. Sure, I like my friends, but sometimes I feel like I can't be completely myself around them. I still feel some cautiousness around them, like I just want to please them only. And school's also lacking another thing. There's no guy I'm interested in there. I don't know how to describe it. Every day is going so fast though. I'm worried about time.

Confusing, isn't it? I don't get myself either, it's okay. SMILEY FACE to cheer myself up!!

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mood: gloomy

music: 楓 by 周杰倫

    Would you look at that? I'm back at LJ again. I thought I quit before, but I won't tell you the reason why I came back!! Okay, fine, I will. It's not like there's anything to hide... I wanted a place where I could vent. So many things have happened and they say that you should never bottle up your feelings and just write it out. Voila, I've got this journal then.

    So what did I do today? I played tennis for the first time... And let me tell you that I've always thought badminton and tennis were similar... but I figured it out myself first hand. My brother, who was actually patient with me, said that I was hitting the ball like a birdie. I can't help it... I play badminton after all! And so, even though I'm a determined person, I can't stop myself from hitting the tennis ball high up into the air! It was 2 hours of fruitless 'playing'. But, even if I was feeling a bit disappointed about my lack of tennis skills, I still do want to get better for a personal reason!! There'ssomeoneiwanttoplaytenniswithoneday... Ahem.
  
 Only 2 months left.

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